13 Weeks Out

I just completed the first week of my diet and I am on to my second week. This is so much harder than I thought it was going to be. I almost had a meltdown in the grocery store because the only things I could buy were vegetables while my boyfriend was buying sausage links, frozen lasagna, and my personal all time favorite; cereal. Do you know how hard it is to go from eating Cinnamon Toast Crunch, to eating rice cakes? I hate rice cakes. I am also not used to cooking and packaging up my meals for the week. Fortunately, my work schedule allows me time in the morning to cook so I don't have to do it all on one day.

I keep thinking I should have done this earlier in the year. The weather is getting warmer and everyone wants to have margaritas on the patio, and go to the lake and barbeque. Just this week alone I have been to 2 restaurants that do not have many healthy options, I have been to the lake where drinking and grilling festivities have been going on, I have been invited to float the river where the only thing you do there is lay down, eat, and drink, and I have gone down to 6th street in Austin. Now you should be proud of me because I did not cave in at all; I was Designated Driver when we went downtown, and I packed and brought my food with me to everything else. I do, however, feel left out. I keep telling myself, "Only 13 more weeks!"

On another note, I have been feeling discouraged lately. I have a long way to go. Just the other day during posing practice, I was looking around at everyone and I am A LOT softer than the rest of them. Everyone else has very low body fat percentage and bigger muscles than I do. I want to do well in the competition; and when I mean do well, I mean place top 5 (as long as there are more than 5 people competing)..... No, let's be honest, I want a trophy, so top 3. As of right now, however, I would be lucky to come in last. Everyone says that wherever you carry most of your fat is where it will take the longest to come off. Unfortunately, mine is smack dab on my lower abdomen for the judges and everyone to see. Now if there is a contest for best belly flab, I am sure to take it!

I am not going to let my aversion to rice cakes and my alcohol cravings take me down. I am determined to power through and perform well. I just hope it goes by fast!